Yesterday was finally sunny and warm lazy sun shines through the windows I used to sit on the sofa. TV used to say: deceive others, deceive themselves. I can be the opposite. Through the novel, the care of the household is always asked, you believe in your heart or your own brain. Every time I see this I would think that my heart never told me anything, I can only trust your brain, then I do not know that his own brain is so fooled by this for many years. Yesterday was Mid-Autumn Festival, is a good day for family reunion, this the happy, but I was crying. Yesterday evening, I, like every other in the C-Train station my mom pick me, every time than my mother early, and today has more than twenty minutes late. Under the C-Train, the heaven was bright, the sun's afterglow, twinkling clatter jump on me, although I had known today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, also discussed with friends, but when the time had never thought of her mother. Watched the sky getting dark, but how her mother's car does not appear, say no hurry to be false, but the heart which is very calm, it is not the bad thing would be a premonition. But have been waiting for forty minutes, and how her mother did not make a call it? My heart said, to see my mom doing it in the end, eyes closed, eyes emerged out of the way her mother to drive, do not do not slow disease, but also did not see her holding a cell phone, my heart that strange child, how still car ah? Does not make sense, ah, if it is a traffic jam, phone must have hit a bar, I gave her a cell phone is turned off. I think this kind of thing that telepathy is not good, estimated to be imagined, can not believe, ignore the heart, my brain active, started the East to the West think, I can not hear the radio, so I called my father, see if he can not hear a thing on the road if traffic jams, but unfortunately my father talked over the phone though, but nobody answered. Days have been full dark, lights are lit up, I stood in the cold in Canada in September with a messy person, home phone has no answer, I seem to be abandoned. I hope I can call the phone who gave me some comfort, holding a cell phone, so many people, I just want to call him, but he was not in Calgary man, but also long-distance phone, and I smiled curse yourself disease can be silly, so no one calls the final play. Hesitation that when the phone finally up and the first tremor, fast slide and I, send text messages to congratulate the Mid-Autumn Festival is a friend, I began to talk with friends, chatted up a text message. Unconsciously I'll wait for nearly an hour, my heart is still in no hurry, but my brain has been very confusing, I know we should wait, if that traffic jam, I do not see my mother to the station, they will home, if not, whether such re-late, it will not come. Looked up, SW Loop 11 Road, parked on the roadside, dragging bags, and some sank in the car, half past eight in 11 road empty, and only one person sitting behind me sad. The car, my brain is more active, seems to have proved that he is right, won my heart. Today, I recalled all the things again, and her mother think of it, grew more and more sad, the more telling myself not to look so weak the more flood of tears. Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival 6 years ago, my father went out of the thing, one eye were broken, and one year after the Mid-Autumn Festival, should my mother have to do anything about children, how Mid-Autumn Festival to it and I do not deal with, since I could, but Mid-Autumn Festival, the Mid-Autumn Festival on holiday I'm not happy yet. Exclude all possible, my mother did not chance a thing is really too small, I sat on public transport vehicles, like abandoned children. I called my mom to call my colleagues, I hope to hear something news, but unfortunately that Aunt cell phone off,Discount UGG boots, no one gave me the spark of hope. Days completely dark, even a street are not around, I choked with tears running out of power shady holding the phone, friends still message me, but I have been back trembling fingers is difficult. I know that the best result, I got home, my mother has been at home for me, though small, this probability can not be calculated, but I still want to pray. Phone, trembling again, is a telephone, caller ID, the-home, open the slide about my brush, my mother anxious sound up and asked me where I started to cry about, talk incoherently crackling, and then I said I immediately to the right station, and my mom said, OK, then you immediately go to the junction. Too dark, I cry see the road, only to find over the station did not have to ring the bell, carrying bags tumble toward the door, crying sound incoherent move along with the driver shouted: to ring the bell. car reached the junction is met my mother to drive over. After listening to Mama, that is, she forgot the phone today, the results of the whole deerfoot road, has been stuck in traffic. . . This came to an end things. As I said before other people did not lie, only deceive themselves, is another story.
He is the son of my mother friends, I first met his friends at home, organized a field party. He is a Leo, and my sister, like a particularly good school, I'm sure will become good friends with him. After that day, we often chat on QQ, because it is summer are busy at home, every day, talk for a long time, I do not know how can there be talk of so many. Very happy day when, in fact, mainly because the day talking with him, my mother asked me if I like him, when really thought about, so I am decisive and not like, how could ah. Unfortunately, I asked my mother gave me this idea I had, I really started thinking. Maybe that time my heart has felt a feeling, but, as always, I choose to believe my brain. I can say without exaggeration to say that I grew up in the face of those friends, no not fallen in love, but I have 20 years of age in addition to over unrequited love, dating not once. My best friend told me that China is too high, you ask, I always answer her, I did not ask, do not request, to make me laugh on the line. In fact, think about what you will find this sentence duplicity, every guy I met, I will naturally consider the more or less, and then my brain would tell me - is not possible, the brain declined The reason is very simple, nothing more then a few - too high, too short, too fat, too skinny, not very smart, is not flexible enough, not handsome, not the romantic type and the like. So think about it, the reason for each rejected my request, but probably because of the subconscious in the brain, usually do not think, so it is old and I did not talk with others requirements. Until now, I admit that there are two boys liked the first one was my primary school friend is Leo, and I liked him from second grade to the first day has been like, but the 7-year-olds understand and imagine what is like? But so long ago, too difficult to distinguish between true and false, do not bother to investigate the. Liked the first two days when a boy, he did me the same table, have been in my back, very much made me laugh, learn well, is the people I know, one of the most intelligent. But at that time, I was particularly clear, because he was studying and I like him, I knew that if he learner, and I am sure that despise him, and the results quickly pulled him by his friends play games, results plummeted, and I see him, do not feel a thing out. So the math, I have 7 years did not really like anyone, I sometimes feel that they are not defective, can not be like other people. I feel like a man so hard, like a person more difficult to recognize. Unexpectedly, really love someone, it is so simple because unconsciously, recognize the more simple like a person, I believe his heart on it. When I first met Evan liked him, but of course, like friends, like love, think he's also very handsome long, but is a bit short, for this reason that formed in my brain to become a stop on their own He has a sense of the conditions, because I always believe that the brain. Every time chat with him, I could not help laughing all, but it kept telling myself that I do not like him, how could like, ah, he is not high enough, though naive, but his successful deception heart, I really thought he was just plain like him, like good friends the same. Little do they know of others seems not the case as early as children, and really the so-called father, like son ah. However, through the Mid-Autumn Festival event last night, I found myself blinded by the brain for many years,UGGs, I realized that my heart is always right, although I have been ignored, but still did not stop the judge. So close your eyes, listened to the voice of the heart, I finally admit that he is in love with Evan was. Recognition of a person is like really good things, even unrequited love, I was very happy that he is capable of love's. Last night my heart to help me summarize a bit, you have only been a day when chatting with Evan with a goofy smile on his face, it is not too ridiculous, but you were laughing. He went to Edmonton to go to school, you kinda like him, although has refused to take the initiative to say anything, but you never hidden the QQ, for he has been invisible to their visible, the old hope that he can take the initiative to talk to you,UGG boots cheap, every time I see him sent a message, you are especially happy, leaving everything to chat with him. You always do not recognize what a good impression on his own, has been afraid to have any impact on his own, but you misunderstood because of his word and insomnia, until he suddenly understood the meaning of their own to engage in anti-a, only a happy heart to sleep. Your performance is also very obvious that he told you he came back this month to 23 a day, you knew he was just waiting for the day, then 24, when your mother told you to invite him home to play cards, you have some self-sad Evan also said that if good, then your mom said, Evan back, and you want them to come back to tell you that he completely forgot that he can only stay for one day, and then also there is no perception, very excited, have to make He also came, people said your mom is back surgery, may not be able to, but you do not care, just very happy he came back, the brain is blank, and only Evan came back a few words in the spin, impatient and quickly to invite him to their own Internet, the results only to find that her mother wrong information, he had two Lab 24 have to go back to school, you look very disappointed, although you helpless smile to hide a little, but your heart more than anyone else understand, but then you have been ignoring their own heart, so you do not admit that he is disappointed because he hopes to see, but to insist that the world laughs with you is not playing, obviously this is fake , because when your mom said you can find the time to play Jenny, while you and Jenny are good friends, but you is a very general feeling faint. That's when he told you he did not want to go back, the results you understood that he could have been even do not want to return to Calgary, you immediately insomnia, excessive for an hour suddenly a flash, only to find themselves misunderstood, people mean that he did not want to go back to school, there is a Lab have time, you finally relieved, and immediately relax the spirit and fell asleep. Mid-Autumn Festival event, people as far away as Edmonton, Calgary, so many people are too lazy to call you to say something comforting to say to him. Home at night, because the mother had previously been stimulated to result excited to sleep, he kept talking to her mother, and finally my mother bath to bed, you can not have to go downstairs because of their difficulties or not, you want to go QQ, see if he is not, I hope talk to him a few words, then you have to cheat, and can still foolishly cling to something, you do not want to open the computer, for fear that he is not online, but it is disappointing and more insomnia But if you do not see him, you simply did not feel at ease, but also can not sleep, so you Niuniunienie finally decided to switch to rolling was removed on the Itouch casual glance, the results of his online, you start talking with him, have been only to casual, after all, was already 10 pm, you have to teach to get up early the next day, but unfortunately a chat with you people, you give up to say goodbye, he suddenly tell you that he is now in the Carl Gary, you are surprised, but delighted with the conscious mind is not, although that did not see a face, but still very happy, do you think heaven ah, I knew just give him a send text messages. Even if people do not understand you, your heart is too see you, you know he surgery tomorrow to check, you are very worried about him, but you and then tweaking, you always feel the need to cover, and then you give it superfluous others send message: what I worry about you, ah, you are from the heart of the worry about what you say you hide it, the novel that explanation is not always cover up, cover up that fact? You read a novel white, white writing fiction, and how all those cliches happen to you then? Tell all your all so obvious, you Monte who? Fortunately, now finally brushed aside the fog and see their own heart. Really glad that you admitted you like Evan, because when you relieved when it is found that, like a person, not as you might think, as always disturbed mind all the time in perpetuity, but a very calm feeling of security.
mother and I always talk about it, why I have not had such a big boy, I always tell whether they are defective. But when genuine recognition like Evan, I did not want to tell my mom. The reason is simple, I think she was too impulsive, though do not know whether she will really make anything, but I also really afraid of her to do. My junior high school, best friends puppy love, the old holding my talk, I was really young and simple, do not understand anything, I think Aso is always a waste of time to say something unintelligible to casual talk with my mother a bit. Then we are all 11-year-old child, my mother and I have no informed conversation actually went to Aso, said she cut into my study, the results Aso wrote me a Dear John letter, I am with her relations turn cold and a long, long time, and then subconsciously, I do not trust my mother, I think she was too impulsive, they dare not tell her anything, she protect the child when no one thought to bring their own children what kind of approach will injury, junior high school in those days, I was really depressed in the class, looking at Aso and others joking when unknowingly I would like to join, but will suddenly wake up, think of that letter dropped to the ground cold Dear John letter , little I really pathetic, the world has forgotten the time to move forward me. From my mother I might dare to intervene for me to tell her. Evan found it when I want to, and who said that, especially at least care about my mother told about, but our two friends, relationship too close, I'm really afraid of the mother impulsive Aries and dry out what makes I am caught off guard thing. Mom went to work this morning, because yesterday I slept too late to children seems a bit late starting, so my father sent, Cancer of the father is still relatively stable, at least in this kind of thing, he too lazy to impulse, and I Evan took the things I like to tell Dad, Dad, promise me not to tell my mother, but he said reports do not tell does not matter,bailey UGG boots, your mother already knew. Dad said, my mother told him before, said it was expected I like Evan, I would! Sure enough, the result is that my multi-cover, only cheated yourself. . .
life really is full of wonders, and today, I thought I lost the ability to love again in love with a person. . .
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